To. (a Lau)

To walk these streets
To tremble
To frantically try to blow the hands warm again
To hide
To close the balcony doors
and tense the jaws
To be the acceptant one
To look for the buttons
To glow
To crave for the other
and admiring oranges floating in the fountain
To come around
or just get a grip
for not causing more damage
To paint spirits
and love the ugly

To walk these streets
and still believe in the most silent steps.
To own the invisible
To hang out
To collect reflections
and to sharpen the elbows at night
To lose custody of the rythm,
backstabbing those ideals
To announce

To walk these streets
like if they were made of fluid
To spit in cups
To turn around in vain
To let it all stay under the table
or in a corner
and settle with general agreements
To choke
To consider the maybe
To smell the unpredictable
and climb
up
down
over
and through the walls
To reach
hopefully forever.